Some Randomness (from the heart)

Welcome!! to all my new Subscribers!! I know this is not what you're expecting... but maybe you will still get a kick out of it.... ;) SO here goes nothing!

((Had a huge urge to just type. Not My Novel, or any shorts, or written poems just straight from my fucking head… so here I am…))

Filling a void with total blankness now. Tumbling ever so softly never wanting to be forgotten. Getting distracted, procrastinating, being bored and overwhelmed at the same time? Can that even be a thing? Being my own personal Therapist…Ask the right questions…Can’t answer…am I crazy? There’s a itch I can’t scratch. A crave I can’t fully describe other than the urge to just be really fucked up/ High. But knowing those limits are far beyond my achieving, putting responsibilities and my health first. I just sit here, heart pounding out of my chest, palms sweating for no reason, just letting it all out!!!!! ( If you are still reading this, I THANK YOU!! YOU ARE A GODSEND!) Breathing is even shaky but I keep going! Can’t find a reason to stop. It’s just my luck! To have the whole world at my finger tips!!! And yet….I’m still fucking stuck!! Or Am I? That’s the deal! Reality being a mindset that is…Not washed up, but only just beginning. Successful in real ways that money can’t buy… Remind us everyday how hard we have actually tried… Self worth being all that we have these days. RESPECT YOURSELF & others will follow! As simple as that. Along with empathy that isn’t toxic and you got it all…Except genuine happiness… Even still that will find you soon. See, happiness comes and go… to even appreciate it to its fullest, you must also know the lowest of lows… So with this unannounced sadness, I sit… ((Wishing I knew what I wanted to eat!!)) Bubbling tummy and no appetite. Ranting still! Because it’s like I have no life. What will become of me? Of this? It’s a mystery that I’ll gladly heat my popcorn up for! Buckling up and enjoying the ride...

Okay, I think It’s time…Hope you enjoyed this very random half rant half poetry & while you are at it, PLEASE give all my stories a read while I type up others….not sure how much more I’ll actually be publishing on here!!! I have ZERO paid subs out of all the hundred of ya and those paywalls are mainly to keep my BEST stories from being pirated. SO working on publishing for realz…that would be super nice!!!!!!! :))

Thanks again for reading! Luv ya all and hope you have a super week :))

Always & Forever, Cherry Quin ;*